That Is How I Feel

	Duration: 07:34 minutes Upload Time: 07-08-05 16:44:29 User: nonamavi :::: Favorites
Description: A little dose of honesty from yours truly.
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ladyjade7013 ::: Favorites how you are feeling (fat, weight too much) is the classic symptom of ED. try to assess how you feel, think it through, and continue to make the change to being healthy... little steps at a time. but you are recognizing how things should be so that is a step. you are having a hard time because of the ED, not because you yourself are not beautiful. ED takes over your psyche and i can understand that it's a battle, but believe yourself, love yourself, and you will emerge. 07-08-26 18:27:12 _____________________________________________________
tjh07 ::: Favorites Life is full of pressure and suffering. What expectations and judgements do you put on yourself and the people and world around you that make that worse. You've labeled yourself "stupid" and "fat"... "a violation of space." With as much suffering that is going on in the world and our everyday lives already, what can you do to lighten the load on yourself other than keeping such tight tabs on your weight? 07-08-25 02:27:20 _____________________________________________________
whysoblind ::: Favorites any* 07-08-21 02:49:59 _____________________________________________________
whysoblind ::: Favorites how long have you had an eating disorder? and have you noticed and physical effects besides weight? 07-08-21 02:46:24 _____________________________________________________
larfa ::: Favorites I think what I feared the most was that if I did tell someone about my eating disorder, that I couldnt eat all that good food anymore and that person I told would think that I wasnt as strong a person as they thought I was. But really what makes us stronger is getting the courage to fix the problem and fighting it. 07-08-19 22:17:46 _____________________________________________________
nonamavi ::: Favorites That is EXACTLY why. You NAILED it. It's because I don't want to be monitored. Not only that, but earlier in my disorder I did let some people know but was let down. They basically didn't care and didn't support me. 07-08-19 22:54:33 _____________________________________________________
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larfa ::: Favorites do u want to be thought of as a girl who is happy? or a girl that is really skinny? This is seems terrifying to do but I finally realized one morning that having that fear and telling my parents about my eating disorder can only make me stronger and help me. Whats the worst that can happen if you let someone help you? The person you hold dearest will only want to help so what do u have to fear by telling them? 07-08-19 22:11:54 _____________________________________________________
darkopacity ::: Favorites When I was in grammar school, people would think I looked weird for being skinny. To me, I really don't give a damn to what people want from me. I realised that whenever someone gives a negative comment about your body, they're most likely not ok with thier own body image. So my point is is that I think you look beautiful, and it doesn't matter if you're "skinny" or "fat". And I just want to support you because I know it's hard. 07-08-19 12:13:05 _____________________________________________________
MichelleChanel ::: Favorites Thanks for sharing, you know you are not the only one who feels like this. I am in quite the similar situation. I watch all your videos, and it helps alot to see someone else struggling like I am. (not saying that you struggling is a good thing, lol it just feels like someone else could understand) thank you for being so honest. 07-08-14 14:44:54 _____________________________________________________
hiroguam ::: Favorites Think of who you are not. You are not a fat single mother with an awful job.Caught in a web of degradation and on the recieving end of ongoing callous condescention from people. It could be worse,right? 07-08-13 05:10:46 _____________________________________________________
hiroguam ::: Favorites Failing in life? Life offers nothing interesting and you cannot decide what to do......it is daunting and depressing to think about.I mean the state of the world.the rat race,try to have some fun w/someone and travel. Jobs,careers,money,partner,even WITH looks a human has a lot to deal with.Freud said," anatomy is destiny",so let that you encourage you.You can eat,you don't have to obsess about working out or losing weight.The rest is luck and perseverance. 07-08-13 04:59:11 _____________________________________________________
hiroguam ::: Favorites Canyou please help me to understand ...you seem to me to be a petite japanese or chinese american.Why are you concerned with your looks when you know you live in a land of obese and unhealthy porkers? You a small Asian American living inthe USA fatland. So why are you doing this discussion and don't you have guys crawling after you? Is the "eating disorder" a weight concern are is it another issue ? I have a family member who is a regurgitating bulemic and I am asking for your insight. 07-08-12 22:22:00 _____________________________________________________
nonamavi ::: Favorites No, the eating disorder is not a weight concern. I'm not trying to make myself more attractive to other people by losing weight. It's a way of externalizing the internal self-hate and insecurity. I want to look as fragile as I feel. 07-08-13 01:23:26 _____________________________________________________
PsykhoxXxDiva ::: Favorites I am going through the same thing...i was 97 lbs and still wasn't happy. and recently i shot up to 102 lbs, and i am hating myself for it.... 07-08-11 17:30:56 _____________________________________________________
Cevawest ::: Favorites what do you mean by "not who I could have been"? I get you in theory- but what in particular did you mean? 07-08-09 22:14:19 _____________________________________________________
nonamavi ::: Favorites I'm not living up to my full potential... academically, socially, anything... I'm like, half of a person. 07-08-13 01:54:32 _____________________________________________________
Cevawest ::: Favorites I figured that's what you meant. Such a strange aspect of this illness is that even the revelation that it's holding back an otherwise intellegent person doesnt work! We end up rationalizing in the opposite direction. I can tell you what worked for me if you're interested =) 07-08-13 16:14:53 _____________________________________________________
hiroguam ::: Favorites Yes I'm interested,since I have a member of family (14ys)-very young.Sorry to be so direct about the comment below,but to deny that is denying any sort birth defect,genetic misfortune,etc.Anyhow the misguided rationalization and what helped you-please continue... 07-08-13 23:50:06 _____________________________________________________
Cevawest ::: Favorites The one idea or rationalization that keeps you going back to the ED is different for everyone. That's what you have to attack every minute of every day- with actual proof that it is not true. "My life will be better when I weigh _______" Well, has your life gotten better as you lose? Chances are it's gotten a lot worse. Theres much more more... 07-08-15 11:57:13 _____________________________________________________
hiroguam ::: Favorites THanks Ceva ;>) Enjoyed your slides-looking forward to all any insights you can share re; your ED exp.Thanks for the invite : ) 07-08-17 16:07:39 _____________________________________________________